you dont know me

You don't know me. You don't know who I am, or what I do for a living. You could say I'm caught in the middle of both light or darkness. Im afraid.

The experience of meditation.

When it feels like your ready to kill, slaughter and butcher someone,that's the time you need to meditate. Now, meditation is not easily done. You need complete and total control on your anger. Experiencing meditation is completely intense and great for handeling your anger, but there is a downside. Once you have done meditation, you wouldn't want to stop because it works so good. In fact, you you could pass out if you replace sleep with meditation.
So have lots of sleep, do meditation when needed and be a good person.